I have a big PROBLEM in hand... I didn't like this one bit.. I have been crying for months because of this... I just can't stop thinking about it that it caused insomnia and every time I see and advertise or any TV shows related to my problem.. I just got scared.. I want to ask help for my friends and family but I just can't... I don't want to burden anymore.. I stop going outside my house.. I sulk inside my room and imagine myself that it's going to be just alright..
When facing my own problems I just want to do it myself.. I don't seek help to other people and now, a problem so big makes me want to cry in my mother's arm and tell her everything. I'm always busy type of person.. I just don't want to sit and do nothing, (not unless my favorite shows are on) I always find ways to do something or I just scream to the top of my lungs... but.. sometimes I just want somebody to hold me... As always, I am afraid to do that because I think I will let my guard down... I didn't do that to my boyfriend.. I don't cry in front of him and I certainly don't want to cry in somebody else's arms... I just wish the world would stop once in a while.
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