The CHANGED of My Life

I was so hurt after losing my first love.. I got depressed and never went to school even though I already went to another school; and I stop talking to my friends and I lock myself inside my room... But that never stop them.. Having depression is like liquidate for my friends... I realized who where my true friends and who were just all talk... They never surrendered in helping me and even held a prayer at my home for my sake... They always invite me to events in my school ( they even went to my house just to say that even though they can just text me).. In my new school, I only had 2 friends which I can really really trust ( I had one friend who is trying so hard to get close to me and steal my stuff and all people on that school hate her personality and I can see why).. My boyfriend now is the third person I trust (he was not my boyfriend at that time he was just my "special friend")..
My life those years was like living hell... I learn the true colors of my parents and it ain't a pretty one... My mom she likes everything her way... My father who always tell what should be my decisions in life..... So in my 16 years of life I was like a doll to them... I sense that they all favor my older brother because he got brains and personality while I.. tried so hard to please them... always disappoint them.. My past love help me get out of my shell and learn to speak for myself... I know my parents wants the best for me but there are things that I have to decide on..
In those times, I tried to cut my wrist five times... I can't sleep at night.. I always cry myself to sleep... My boyfriend court me and I said no because I was still heartbroken but he insisted and he doesn't care if I still love the other guy.. I ask him if it was okay and he nodded.. It was hard for the both of us because I was still searching for that guy even though my boyfriend was at my side... I know that was hard for him too... I said to myself that I was horrible but he still love me any way.. In time, I grew to love my boyfriend.... But i wasn't so sure about my feelings so for one last time I went to my old school and find answers whether I still love him so much or my feelings changed??
I saw him at their prom (my best friend beg me to come to help her dance with her crush because I was close to him) and there he was.. I was shock because I thought my feeling would be like "I want to hug him" but it was not... Actually, the whole night I searched for my boyfriend and how I wish to dance with him that night..

--This was 2 years ago.. I am now happy with my bf (yes, He is still my bf) and I' happy with my friends and family even though my the scars left because of my depression is still there, I am pretty happy with my life now than before..--

--My past love?? I didn't regret meeting him because he taught me so much... Because of him.. I knew who were my true friends and I learn to speak for myself and because of him.. I have a good relationship in my family than before and I came out of my shell ( I used to shy and almost never talks.. Now, I'm very outspoken and make my friends laugh of my antics).. Because of him, I see the value of the people around me and how it would feel they disappeared form my life.. Because of him, I have a boyfriend who I love and Loves me very much and because of him.. I learn to love my life.. So wherever you are.. Thank u..--